
Hello. My name is Guy. ‘fearfulodds’ refers to a few diseases that have been architected to kill me. But as a friend once said, “I’m still ‘ere, ‘en I?” Life itself can come with some pretty fearsome odds too; I’ve been fascinated by what it takes to overcome them. As part of my PhD I got involved with the Research Method Autoethnography, a disciplined reflexive self-examination, then tried to work out how to weave that learning into creative writing. And mental well-being. An example is the blog I wrote about my recent cancer journey.

I’ve had three different careers, a soldier, ops at Heathrow and two decades in IT. Four, if I include Academia (2016-23). Writing, however, has been a constant substrate of my life. Poetry, primarily, but other modalities too. I think it’s language itself, and how it changes, especially within each modality, that fascinates me. And how it goes wrong when we communicate. I accidentally became an expert in metaphor and other artefacts of figurative language. Not a brilliant chat up line. Books too, a constant and indelible friendship over six decades, both reading and writing.

On this site I run two blogs. One is about the mental and emotional goings-on with a diagnosis of cancer. Two different departments of Oncology gave me five years to live, back in spring 2023. Clock’s ticking, right? Quicker than it normally ticks …
And what we can do with our mind and outlook to try and maintain stability and a positive outlook
[this is on hold atm] The other is about identity. And how identity changes, especially with disabilities. The mental and emotional shenanigans that goes on with a diagnosis like progressive multiple sclerosis which they got to in ’14 but I’d been to the medics with in ’06.
